Yesterday's counselling session was about analysing my Total Behaviour.

It actually consists of 4 parts

 

1. Feelings

2. Physiology

3. Thoughts

4. Actions

 

According to Andy, Feelings and Physiology are 2 aspects which are not within our control. It is a reaction which is already "built-in" from our character. Like I was quoting an example when he asked me about something which triggers anxiety, I told him it was when I did an MRI scan way back in 2007. I was anxious (and scared) [Feelings] which make me burst into tears [Physiology], and I constantly worry if this machine will "saboh" me and cause me any pain or not [Thoughts] and in the end, I told the nurse I was too traumatised to continue with the scan [Actions]. He gave me an assignment before I see him 5 weeks later - to document down the moments when anxiety strikes me. He would want to tie these feelings to the underlying reasons what triggers my anxiety. Sounds very interesting because at least, I know what are the triggers, and I can counter them. (and not avoid them)

 

Tonight is the AIA Awards Nite, I am dressed in Full Black (as it is a black tie event) with a tailored silver vest for each and everyone of us in the District, courtesy of our DM. But sadly, I will not be able to meet my dd because he is too tired to wait for me to finish at the dinner to meet me. Sigh. And tomorrow he has classes, so meaning, I can only meet him in the evening. No choice lor, what to do.

 

Got a dilemma now. Obtained the reno quotation from my uncle's friend already. The difference is $2888. But one is a well known ID company, and the other is just a normal ID company. Of coz design wise, the well known ID has so far given us quite good vibes about them, and using interactive software to show us what would our future home look like before he starts the renovation. Wheares I dun think we will get that kinda service from the normal ID. Arghh. $3k for drafts and designs? I am not sure which to go for!

 

Nothing much to update already because work suxs. ADM accounts are also very messy. Haiz. But by hook or by crook must complete the Oct 2009 ones by saturday. Haiz. We shall see.

 

till then.

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